ek aur pal iss zindagi ka...lolll

Emotions - mein pichle do ghante se soch nahin pa raha hun ki mere dil mein kya hain .... mein physically toh yahan hun par phir bhi yahan nahun hun ---- aisa kyun hota hain ki mein naa chate hue uss ek bande ke itne karib ho gaya ki mujhe iss baat ka bhi ehsaas na ho saka....

mein samaj nahin pa raha hun ki mein kya karun --- bas akele duniya ke ek kone mein baithe hue sirf yeh soch raha hun ki apne emotions ko kaise control kar saku... mein thak gaya hun yaar iss life se...

maine manga kya hain thoda sa peace aur thodi si khushi woh bhi apne liye nahin apno ke liye.... aye khuda agr tu sahi mein toh madad kar mujhe iss dard se nikalne ki.... maine koi bura kaam nahin kiya aajtak par uski sajah aise toh naa de. ki mein puri tarah se tuthh jaun... aur kal ko tang aake kuch kar baithu

ek saal se uppar ho gaya mujhe apne liye ek parona dhundte hue -- par kya hua har baar girke apne aap ko bawkuf banata hun ki abb kuch accha hoga -- kya accha hoga yaar.... tang aa gaya hun mein innn sabse.....

agr yehi sab experiment karne the toh aur kisi ko hi yeh zindagi de deta.... maine toh sirf tujse 2 gazz khushi mangi thi aur tuuu woh bhi naa de saka....

har roz ekk naya sawal - phele wale solve hote nahin aur har baar ek aur......... bas kar bas kar apne bando ko itna mat satttttaaa kyunki agr tere iss bande ka dimag kharab ho gaya toh sahi mein yeh kuch kar baithega.......

koshish karta hun jeene ki par agr tu woh bhi naaa manne toh mein kya karun...... baksh de mujhe --- mere purane paapo ki sajah abb mat de.... duniya bhr mein hum insaniyat ka patt padate hain par abb tujhe kiss cheez ka patth padaun ki jisse tujhe samaj aajaye ki abb tere iss bande ki dukh sahne ki vaaladity khatam ho gayai hain aur agr jaldi kuch naaa kara gaya yeh expire ho jayega....

tunne insaan banake sahi mere liye bahut galat faisla liya isse accha toh tha tu mujhe ..................
please daya kar........ mein sahi mein abb aur nahin seh sakta --- har second sirf yeh sochna ki aaj ka din kaisa hoga...... maaf kar mein nahin sochna chahta abbb...

mein sahi mein keh raha hun agr mere mann uth gaya tujse toh kasam hain mujhe mein teri chaukat pe saari zindagi nahin aaunga... bas kar abb mujhe yeh sajaa dena... please... tujhe jis language mein samaj aata hain usmein samajle... tere iss bacche ko abb azadi chaiye har cheez se free rehne ki azaadi........

kyun???

Sochte hunn ki aaj humari life mein kuch accha hoga - par kya woh accha itna zaroori hain ki hamein usske liye kisike saath conditional hona pade.... yaar kaisi life hain yeh --- kab samjhege hum yeh asli sach nahin hain...


khushi kya hain ---- ek pyaari si smile kissi aise bande se milna jiske baare mein hum sochte rehte hain aur woh haamre samne ussi second aa jaata hain......

yaar mein toh ek normal simple sa banda hun -- but pata nahin kyun yeh simplicity bhi naam ki hi reh jaati hain kyunki hum saara din hum uske baare mein sochte hain kisse hum bahut pyaar karte hain - itna pyaar ki hamare paas words nahin hote uske baare mein bolne ke liye...

dusro ke samne toh hum fake chera bana lete hain ki hum itne khush hain ki bhagwan hi malik jitne hum kabhi nahin hue - bt kya fayda uss dikhawe ki life ka ---- abb toh jeena do yaar uss tarah jaise tum jeena chahte ho... uske ek bande ke saath jeena chahte ho.....

kahaniya toh banti hi isliye hain ki kal ko koi usse kuch seekk sake -- par tabhi fayda hain agr sahi mein koi seekhe.... sahi mein reality ko face karne ka dil ho...


hum sab even mein khud bhi bhagwan pe believe karta hun ---- but aise beleive ka kya matlab agr woh har din ek nayi cheez apke samne rakh de... aur aap saara din sirf yehi sochte raho ki abbb kab aayega woh time????/ kab --------------

chala tha akele raho ki taalash mein socha na tha ki rasta aisa hoga --- par kya hua agr rasta aisa hain toh zyada U-turn hain zyada problem hain par phir bhi issi ka toh naam zindagi hain.... chalte chalo mere yaaro sambhal ke apne kadam ---- kya pata shayad agle hi modd pe tumhari mulaqat ho jaye ek sunhari subeh se...

sochte the zindagi ko jeetenge - par kya hua agr usmein kuch kammi aa gayi toh... abb khana bhi banate ho toh kuch na kuch toh bhul hi jaate ho ---- abb perfect toh nahin mil sakti na har cheez.... par karo koshish usse perfect banannne ki....


kyun ka safar aisa hi hain jaise har cheez mein bina soche koi problem aa jaye --- par kya farq padta hain agr hum janke bhi uss problem ko durr na kar sake.......

kyun???????? aagey abb aap sabki baari sochne ki...

My coming back message

Best thing in life is to serve HUMANITY - one life so live for all instead of living for your own profit.. Try to think different and you will get to know the life is very much beautiful thn what we think.... A gift we got so live it and let everyone live it in their own spirits....


Sorry i was away for some work - but me back again with the same feelings same words and yes same me - yours and yours only - Karan

Waiting for SOMEONE at DOORSTEP

Waiting... what waiting... more then 75% of the world do not have the time to wait... as all are always in rush... so do it means that they are not waiting for that Someone special at their doorstep..... Naaaa.... the special would be anything... a smile, a letter, a person, a ray of life... it would be anything.... but ......

Knock Knock still no one is at the door yet... Why the reason is only one... the vision the person is trying to think or feel is still beyond its limit and there is still no ray of hopes or chances that it will be going to knock the door soon...

So, better keep on waiting and yes if believe in GoD ask him/her when is mine turm... when that someone will knock at mine DOORstep.... the one whom I am dying to get/wait from years.....

We know how to smile but do that smile is real... nooooo it is the smile that the world make us to put on our face... it might be sometimes the smile that we are getting directly from our heart but more often it is the only smile that the WORLD had given us .... Want to smile REAL... the life make me play on its turn from year now really its mine turn.... and I hope.... naaa no hope... I really want that it would knock at mine doorstep soom as mine someone special....

The Peace SOUL

The peace soul....... The moment of the day, of the life.... where we actually are really what we are in REAL.. no fake nothing is allowed at that time.... It might be at the very next moment or it is just knocking at your doorstep but ????? what......

Why I am not able to make mineself believe that yes the peace time is for me too... but we do not able to believe it so... We need to slow down not for whole life... but just a moment only.. a single moment.. where one close eyes and just (think), sorry no thinking allowed at that time, but try to feel the life.... then wether that moment is either through medication or through listening music or just sometimes feeling GOOD but yes one can feel like that.. I am very much sure.... The only thing is that we need to make ourselves understand that we too can for sure.....

JUST need to stop thinking the worst effect because if there is a sometimes NO GOOD TIME IN LIFE then at very next moment THERE WILL BE SOMETHING SOME/MORE HAPPY MOMENTS WAITING FOR YOU.... ..... ....... THE ONLY THING NEEDED IS WAIT... I KNOW WITH THE WAIT TOO PEOPLE DO NOT AGREE... BUT IF WE KNOW HOW MUCH WAIT WE HAVE TO DO.. THAN WHAT WOULD BE THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN GOD AND WE (HUMAN).... SO TRY TO BELIEVE IN THE WORDS "sometime wait for the better future, not for long but for some moments ONLY"

WISDOM OF SADNESS

In anyhow the words "WISDOM OF SADNESS" are nothing but just a phrase... but whats the exact meaning of that... Do ever we make ourselve to understand that why these words actually are??? The answer is NO...

Reason is only one we do not have time to think little bit extra other than our hectic life... Its true for a better time in life there is a need of being so hectic.... but....

..... no it is not making any correct sense... if at  the end of the day you are not able to think peacefully for a single moment than what is the meaning of being so hectic..... It is just only one single thing that there is a need to SIT QUIetly for some minutes... so as to understand that why and for what I am doing....

Do this is really something that I want from life..... May be by doing so one can being able to reduce some of the conflict with the life.... We have to start thinking for this thing ASAP.... else nothing but at the end we even do not able to understand ourselves too.....

Note to all readers: Do not take my words as I am going through this phase, but it is nothing much but a real truth of all of us life..... now it totally depends on you that what you want to believe and what you do not... But really it is better to get AWAKE now then it is really very much delay....GOOD LUCK TO ALL....

SURPRISE AT VERY NEXT MOMENT

Opening mine eyes after some hours of sleep..... I just get keep struct in thinking what i had seen in mine dream... what exactly it is.......

but thinking for a few seconds I wondered this is one of the Angel I am looking up from the very fews days who can brighten up ma and mine whole life.....

..... Now, I am able to understand that why GOd plays with us... the only reason he always he is having is that YES YES now it is your turn.... to get the SURPRISE that I (GOd) is having from a quite long time.... but this is the right moment that I am waiting for to give it you....

And.... A few words from GOd.... I know you sometimes you (human) might not be happy with mine decisions I had made for you, for your whole life..... but I am very much sure that the outcomes you get at the end... is what really worth while.... and I am sure.... you will be happy to find it when it is your turn to get the SURPRISE AT VERY NEXT MOMENT........